It’s been 23 minutes since midnight and I simply cannot hold myself back.
It is the 23rd of April of 2019 and we are entering our 29th turn around the sun. So many years together, so much we’ve been through. Yet, the joy this day brings a joy still unseen and unusual to most people. Too many don’t understand the true happiness, the joy that consumes our bodies this day of the year.
If you’ve made this far in our chapters, you might think that we don’t have much to be proud of. Or not, gosh I know of what you think! So much misery we’ve gone through in life. Sorrows, deep shit, heartbreak. So much we’ve struggled to understand which ended up in crawling under our blanket, trying and get the answers no one else would. We’ve done that for years, but for most of the recent ones, we’ve fought to grasp the meaning of whatever we were facing. And most importantly, we have been victorious for a large part of it. We’ve seriously won.
We won when we decided that there would be a day when nothing else but our pride would matter. The pride we gather both for ourselves and for the beauty of all we’ve accomplished. We took this day as the one which wouldn’t tell of sorrows or tears, or sadness or fuck-ups. We hold on to this day like a kid to its teddy bear and we crave for it so intensively that, clearly, no one understands. But well, no need to. It comes from within and we genuinely cheer up to it.
Most of the ones we know think of their birthdays as a day to be left aside. “We are getting old, why would I celebrate?!”, they say. They preach days long gone and despise the things they should praise. I see people taking days and years for granted whilst, in our eyes, gratitude and smiles should be the key to open the doors of today, of this special day. To celebrate one’s cycle is to enlighten the future. And all we wish is that most people saw the same, but well… life is one’s own to live.
And so, alone here we stand. Sitting on our couch, in our recently leased apartment, smiling at our future. We take those rusty and old keys that we used to open the so many doors in the past year and we close up the last door of the 28. We reach out to the back pocket of our pants and grab that shiny one with the sign of 29 in it. Gosh, has it really been this long?! How come do we still feel like 19?! Nevertheless, ten years have passed and so much has happened. Much to be happy about, even more to be grateful for.
As the winds of change keep on blowing over our windows, we open the lock and open the door. We take one step ahead to begin the new turn, filled with happiness, surrounded by the love that comes from within. Long time since we’ve felt this way, but here it is again. We feel happy, she feels complete. Much has changed in this years’ celebrations, but she has all she needs right at her hands and that’s enough for me. The golden key is everything. The new beginning is right at the cross of the street.
Come on now, 29! Let’s discover even more, let’s embrace our simpathy and smiles. We promise to forget of the shitty past, to let go of the long lasting tears: They may come tomorrow, or the week after. Today, it’s only about the special. Today is only about her. So us, happily ever after, shall very well be.
Happy birthday to us!
Though, so many years older than the two of you, me and the little boy inside, we both are still learning from the way you deal with your experiences. Full of admiration,because we realise whe have never been that far yet. Despite our difference in age it seems that you are miles ahead of me. Still struggeling the sorrows gone trough and not yet being able to smile to each new morningsun, not yet able to be happy with each new given day with thousands of opportunites and chances. Please teach me to leave my old keys behind and find the courage to start opening doors we have never gone through. Thanks for your joy and optimisme, which helps me to keep going.