Much

So much in my mind to tell
Such a filled heart ready to yell
But no words come out
Silent, all that’s about

Weeks living in up and down
Days and hours spent in lockdown
Nothing by walls to run to
Not much left to do

Chit chat here and there
With many, from everywhere
Nothing but a lit screen
No touch, nothing green

Never thought would crave this much
For a simple, a single touch
An embrace of any type
A true hug, something kind

She told me, you’re just a woman
You’re yearning for something human
Do others also feel this way?
I wonder, as goes by the day

Judged by self love
I see those who live enclosed
No connections do they enjoy
Other people, just another toy

So here I lie, awake and sleepless
Longing, waiting, almost breathless
I trust the gut that says it’ll come
Soon enough you’ll be back home

And so when things become more clear
Wandering mind less puzzled as such
I tell myself
Believe, dear
What you ask ain’t that so much

Fly

Fly

Fly beyond the skies and the stars
Reach Jupiter, Pluto or far ahead in the galaxy

Fly like nothing on the ground would hold you
Like nothing down there would ever hurt you

Fly like you’ve ever dreamed of
And if you were flying in your dreams
If you were diving in these streams
You can reach anywhere
With your mind and soul
Be right there

And then rest your heart
In the highest skies
Where the clouds are never domain
And the sun always shines

A home for the entire universe
A place for love and peace and thrive.

Shady

Single steps heard on the street
Just as loud as her fast heartbeat
Deep breath to feel the air
Exhale, let out all that despair

Empty streets in all corners
Layout a life of bother
Look up at the bluest sky
Oh, how life can be so bright

Years of solitude materialised
The strength embedded tries to suffice
They say it differs from what was past
Discarding the length it lasts

The cold touch and rare encounter
Becomes now the golden platter
Always believing it was all okay
Felt like an animal trapped in a cage

Weeks gone by in isolation
Going places turns into temptation
Inside her mind, a place alike
She is just trying to survive

Outer world, no comprehension
They all got somewhat attention
The walls once saw as single safety
Now loathed in daily thoughts
In a truth ever so shady.

Uncontrollable

Thoughts in outer space
Swearing loud “there is no grace!”
A feeling without description
no precedent, no intuition.

So much has come to place
Sweat and tears, full of disgrace
Such sacrifice with just no reason
Such life lived in an inner prison.

Mind and body aligned and calm
Words come in without embalm
Why no good comes from that face?
Is it all as you say, so grave?

We know and feel the truth within
Beliefs and facts not always seen
Thin veil over reality shock
Oh dear, they’re just a flock

Semantics hurting in unknown speed
Try to gather, to plant the seed
A cause appearing so uncontrollable
Hear, my dear
You don’t get into their bubble

Watch tomorrow with fresh new eyes
Breathe, believe, it will suffice
Let it all flow out in streams
Sleep, dear
Go back to your dreams.

Skies

She found herself in the skies of love and laughter.
she gazed deeply at the blue and the light.
she found the ease, the peace and its fullness.
it was true love at first sight.

So long the time amidst deep darkness
buried alive, condemned to its horrors
building the walls of plain flawless
made up a world with nothing but hollow.

No comprehension, no empathy to another
life and history kept told in a flash
searched again, chose to not bother
upright path, she found, at last.

All in all far gone in books
feeling, seeing, the now take place
hands together, screw the looks
life and much yet to embrace.

Looking down from the skies of wander
she saw dark and the warmth from below
she missed the heat and that stranged thunder
seeing through the mist
a life and no glow.

Heat

The heat
The seed
The warmth of the skin

The sky
So bright
Brings light into your mind

The flesh
Caressed
But not at all relaxed

Deepen days
So short
Doing nothing of what it says

The heart
Compressed
Beating faster than the charts

We think
In time
Of keeping only what is kind

Then life
Becomes
An endless search to nothing find.

Gunfire

History told in tears
telling tales of hurt and sorrow
blaming pain on empty fears
was it all really this hollow?

My veins still filled with pain
Your done, your words, your guilt
So often forgotten in your drain
Your mind is always adrift

Lured into believing
To see sides of an utopia
Filled heart wanders in dreaming
Past forgotten, left out in dystopia

Mind open, soul renewed
Lasting feelings to keep alive
Signs of change slowly brewed
Why are you hiding out of sight?

Lessons of a life filled with hope
Now show the truth of that troubled mind
Can’t he really feel loved?
Is he really this blind?

My heavy heart slowly retires
Filled with sadness and disbelief
I spotted ease but found gunfire
Leave the dead, my dear
It’s about time you grieve.

Surrender

so much, so little
so vague, so fulfilled
days by, months gone
what is it we’ve shown?

the laughs, the silliness
now feel like emptiness
no more you and I
was it without a try?

endless nights we’ve spent
wandering around the tent
gazing at the white sky
have we really ran dry?

hours in the silent web
thinking the thoughts we had
hurtful silence, strange absence
was it the wrong sense?

now the time is to surrender
to let go of the whole tender
learn again of that single tone
and return to the state of strange
and at all alone.

Recado

Com o coração na mão
e de peito aberto
escrevo-te um recado
pra não esquecer

longo foi o tempo
amando sincero
de credo em alento
que se viu viver

mudanças tantas
aqui e acolá
passagens e andanças
fizemos muito a voar

idas e vindas
chegadas e partidas
abraços e acolhidas
saudade do estar

algo num súbito
mudou-se em absurdo
sem muita compreensão
veio o adeus de sopetão

hora é, pois, de dizer
o quanto isso me faz doer
as crenças e confidências
dos tantos anos juntos a viver

palavras que não se completam
lágrimas que não se secam
ferida que se abriu
ainda viva me dissecam

que fique, então, registrado
da dor que dói sem compasso
dos planos que se retiram
da vida minha que mais cobiçam

fecho os olhos pro passado
esqueço o que deu errado
prometo seguir o passo a passo
levantar o abstrato

o vício e a abstinência
buscam perdão como ciência
tamanha a prepotência
não se conserta com essa frequência

digo-te pois, adeus
seguirei sem os pensamentos teus
deixo-te de vez seguir
quando de fato sou eu
quem há muito devia partir

History

The eyes were closed
but the mind was racing
her heart was hurt
and reality vanishing

All the hope she kept
was in vain rejected
no way back allowed
it was all for the crowd

So much grieve and sorrow
but no tear he shed
she wished another heart to borrow
but craved for another truth instead

Years of love and devotion
thoughts in slowmotion
heartbeat paused its streams
she said goodbye to those dreams

He said of life yet to be lived
shared would be only with his kin
her beat no longer with him fit
tears and sadness through her skin

Parted from a life of smiles
she felt to be sent to exile
and even with days and nights of pure misery
she recalled with tenderness
that love
which now was nothing but history.