Life told in chapters
I’m in a living room inside
I am in a city with no name
I am in the middle of chaos
I am in the center of a chase
I could be anywhere
But the noises make it quite clear
In this mission kinda rare
I feel I could disappear
Such happiness inside
Such pleasure in easy routine
Terror is out ventured disguised
Beauty fuels the constant smile here
I hear noises everywhere
I hear lives happening nearby
I live and breathe this dream aware
This was always supposed to be mine.
2023 was all about me.
I looked back at my life
my people and my kind
saw plenty of naked truths
and let go of so many of yous
I traveled here and there
ate, ventured, loved and shared
soaked up on bits of the world
became addicted to every type of growth
I lifted weights like no other
real ones and those of deep bother
got to know close the once stranger barbell
felt vividly its power to break through my shells
and as I live through this unicorn of a journey
conscious, grounded, abundant and loving
I ready to start a new whole other chapter
I prep my heart to what’s yet to come in laughter
I move on grateful for every moment alike
I shout thank you, thank you, thank you.
Let’s do this one more time. ♥️
And so here we are
I’ll repeat what I once said
that I’ve been both
the hunter and the prey
of all survived
of all a little bit have gazed
at each time
got that bar a little higher raised
cos I knew ‘twas mine
whatever I chose to chase
and when now they say
that I take too much space
the once crawl in
now shines from here to space
so hear me out, come gather around
we’ve got it done, we’ve got ‘em sparks
tag
it’s now my turn to be the shark.
I was walking through a park in the middle of the city and I saw someone who looked familiar.
“Could it be him?!”, I thought.
But then my brain connected the dots: that person wouldn’t be here. He’s afraid of flying!
Haha.
Here.
But wait!
“Where is ‘here’?”
I wondered confused for a split second, until I looked at my left and saw the castle of Edinburgh just sitting there on top of a mountain and then I remembered. It’s the end of September, and I’m in Scotland for the weekend. My mind has been everywhere and so has my body lately, and I felt positively lost for a moment. Travelling through time zones, swapping bikinis for scarves within a day, going from street food breakfasts to potato based dinners. Life has been eventful – and isn’t exactly that I’ve always asked for?
Yes. Yes, it is!
It was a New Year’s resolution I confess I didn’t know I would be able to keep up with, and though a mild concern for my finances next year somewhat ping on my mind from time to time, I am committed to living today and carrying on with the feels. The tides have been high and low, and on both I have swam, strengthened, survived.
At each take off and each arrival, a new feeling, a new variable gets looked at, checked out, revised, reshaped. Life, work, friends, family, status, house. All the elements that makes one a fully functioning full grown adult in present day life is looked at in a near desperate attempt to understand if I am actually doing okay. It is anxious, of course, but after so many years of foul modus operanti, it is how healthy move forward looks like. And I wouldn’t have it any other way, I admit.
House?
Under revision
Family?
Closer, but under revision
Inner circle?
Under revision
Work?
Under development
Status?
Happily single by choice.
I know the quality of my love, and without the above at least seemingly sorted, I can’t open the doors to anyone. I’m close though, and that’s exciting.
My year has been nothing if a whole renovation project and I am beyond grateful for the possibilities I’ve created for myself to make everything happen, for each choice made towards keeping it going, and for every person I met along the way. It’s been an incredible journey so far, and though I have no idea of what lies ahead, I know one thing is absolutely certain: my ground is firm, my mind is strong, and I am ready.
And as the winds of change blow stronger, I just ask the universe to please please let me keep and sharpen the best parts of me. The spark in my eyes, the kindness in my heart, an open mind. And I beg life to be kind enough to give me time!
I rejoice in finding peace and balance in the silence, and I know how incredible days look like. I am committed to settling down, and for nothing short than this exciting, life giving thing I am lucky to call my life!
Grateful.
one week, seven sunrise walks.
never have I thought how much these be meaning
never have I fathomed how deep they’d be pealing
never have I realised how transformative those steps
through my dirt roads, through crops of pep
morning sounds blended with fresh smell
it feels like home but only to my shell
I’ve thought and felt and talked and cried
set total free my sweet vulnerable side
so now that some glasses have properly shattered
and I see clearer across those patterns
I feel so deeply, can’t quite dwell
after all this time, is it perhaps
the time for real farewell?
never you mind the light of day
just hear me out when I here say
I’ve been both the hunter and the prey
sailed trouble waters and rested at bay
and there is nothing I’d ever hide
either if it’s for or against the tide
cos my game is all about the ride
so I ask please, please universe
when my heart gets restlessly averse
just play that tape and then rehearse
and please be kind
just kind enough to let me rewind.
Ancient history is somehow present tense.
Everything is ending, but nothing is over.
And none of us knows how to make sense of the jumble of things that happened.
You start to wonder if anything meant anything.
If all we’re doing is reacting and the reactions don’t even make any difference.
Archived
once so active, so sweet and so hype
now lies lifeless between all the silence
daily constant euphoria encountered
progression often well-ignited
archived
hundred to zero so suddenly halted
made of it all nothing but doubt
my heart broke down aching ours
so hurt, it just cannot inquire
archived
no chances, no talk, no time
surprise! you’re no longer mine
said of time not playing our side
your choices, a blanket of quiet
archived
our relation-less ship is now docked
so much tenderness in full disembarked
here, let’s go, it is time we parted
I fight, insist, all denied
I just simply don’t know where our end
has actually started.
