There having been days in which the struggles are greater than the peace.
A little while ago, I decided to summon my demons to look at them face to face. I searched, called and brought each one of them to the surface, determined to banish them from hell. I knew many of their names, but I underestimated their power, their connections. Their claws contain red bows entangled with ropes that lead to every soul they torment. All bad decisions ever made were controlled by their fingers, but no one was ever held accountable. They’ve always been overlooked and simply misplaced in the midst of the whole thing. Well, it was about time that changed.
There was an excuse, a reason to not point fingers. Blood, connections and the most absurd of all: love. I guess just like people self-destruct in the name of a god, people easily use love as shield for their bad, misled actions.
Once a week, in a timeframe which seems to last forever, we meet. After days filled with anxiety and anger, emotional rollercoasters and screaming pain. It drives us to a state of plain; a fear of the unknown. There is no control of the frames, nor of the words that will come out. The road taken is paved with fear, leading to nowhere but absolution.
Once a week we talk. We discuss, argue, shout and scream. We recall all that happened and we disagree on the terms of what will it be. Can there be forgiveness to the damned?
Wishing to be still alive, the demons slowly get by. Wandering through the ashy roads of hell, all doors find its owner, every demon gets its place. We see the streets emptying and the paths getting clearer, only to realise the many yet to come.
Our meetings with our demons are familiar yet strange. They take place among the memories blurred and burnt, product of the flames once burning of excitement. Their heat consumed our heart through the years we thought to be joy, but left nothing but destruction on the path along the way.
Little by little, the water begins to run. And with the first river empty and the ashes cleaned up, it’s time to descent and meet what awaits us in the second of our seven hells.
